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The Running Man

miss-poet:

He lapses into a perpetual dream
His legs keep moving
Never reaching his destination

He keeps
    running
        chasing
            sprinting
                from a shadow of his vulnerable being
His head turns in terror
He wonders who is that man
He realizes it’s himself

He returns to the past
His safety net
He sees me standing before him
    He reaches into me
        His hand pushes right through my body
            like a hologram

My body
    — Now red —
            Liquifies
He looks down at his hand
It’s as crimson as my body
His palm is
    drizzling blood
into the swamp
    from where I arose

Struggling to remain adrift …

I’m choking on his frustration
    It’s weighing me down
        I’m drowning in his negativity
            It’s burying me alive

He calls “check mate”
Like a chess game
With each engaged conversation

He believes he’s the
    Almighty Pawn
No one can hurt him
    He continuously overthrows me

He appears on his throne
He thinks he’s in command
I hover before him
I become a poisonous viper
I spew venom in his face
His personage returned

My serpentine tongue spirals out
    with a hiss
It coils around his neck
    like a choke-hold
His regal body carried away
A demon’s hook put in place

His back firmly anchored
He’s screaming his agony
The venom melting his face
    trickling down his chin
                neck
His body’s turning
    Red
        Purple
            FINALLY
                    Blue
Choking
    Gasping his final breath

My repugnant laughter echoes
    throughout the swampy land

My viperous skeleton floats
Around his abortive body

My python tongue
    cracks like a whip
at his blighted corpse
    his shriveled skin cuts open
        Lash
            after
                Lash
Toxic fluid drools down his body
    As it collects in the gills
        of his flesh

I slither
    and
        hiss
            around his carcass

I determine
    his state of being

I make sure
    He’s lifeless

For I do not want
    him to resurrect

I am his commander
    King of his mind

I conquered
    his reigning of my psyche

He is no longer a part of me.




Written By:  Denise K. Marine

November 13, 2012

The Running Man

He lapses into a perpetual dream
His legs keep moving
Never reaching his destination

He keeps
    running
        chasing
            sprinting
                from a shadow of his vulnerable being
His head turns in terror
He wonders who is that man
He realizes it’s himself

He returns to the past
His safety net
He sees me standing before him
    He reaches into me
        His hand pushes right through my body
            like a hologram

My body
    — Now red —
            Liquifies
He looks down at his hand
It’s as crimson as my body
His palm is
    drizzling blood
into the swamp
    from where I arose

Struggling to remain adrift …

I’m choking on his frustration
    It’s weighing me down
        I’m drowning in his negativity
            It’s burying me alive

He calls “check mate”
Like a chess game
With each engaged conversation

He believes he’s the
    Almighty Pawn
No one can hurt him
    He continuously overthrows me

He appears on his throne
He thinks he’s in command
I hover before him
I become a poisonous viper
I spew venom in his face
His personage returned

My serpentine tongue spirals out
    with a hiss
It coils around his neck
    like a choke-hold
His regal body carried away
A demon’s hook put in place

His back firmly anchored
He’s screaming his agony
The venom melting his face
    trickling down his chin
                neck
His body’s turning
    Red
        Purple
            FINALLY
                    Blue
Choking
    Gasping his final breath

My repugnant laughter echoes
    throughout the swampy land

My viperous skeleton floats
Around his abortive body

My python tongue
    cracks like a whip
at his blighted corpse
    his shriveled skin cuts open
        Lash
            after
                Lash
Toxic fluid drools down his body
    As it collects in the gills
        of his flesh

I slither
    and
        hiss
            around his carcass

I determine
    his state of being

I make sure
    He’s lifeless

For I do not want
    him to resurrect

I am his commander
    King of his mind

I conquered
    his reigning of my psyche

He is no longer a part of me.




Written By:  Denise K. Marine

November 13, 2012

On The Verge Of True Love

miss-poet:

I


It’s not so much a matter
    of meeting the right person
As it is meeting them
        at the right time
                    —— Javan

A by-chance meeting
    at a bar
        on a mid-November night
    stood a hairless man
        by choice
    a background somewhat
        of the drifter type

He settled his eyes on a woman
    with a wild and crazy personality
        and a daring attitude
    to the on-looker
but has a warm and loving heart on the inside

A figment of the imagination
    or are these two people
        on the verge of true love?

With a blink of an eye
    the “old married couple syndrome” developed
        new living arrangements were
            established for this choice
                hairless man

Months pass
    life has never been more meaningful for this couple
        greeting each other with a kiss
        making dinners for two
        sleeping in each other’s arms
        creating an earthquake when they made love
    A new addition entered their lives
        a big furry puppy
    She’s the “Lady” of the house

Then issues started to sneak out
    from their cover of perfect love
questions, concerns arose
    an unsuspecting person
noticed changes around the house

Embarrassment
    anger
        uncertainity
    stirred like an icy wind
a bag of “dirty laundry” appeared
    stood in between them
        as high as Mount Everest

II


Because I took a moment to speak
And you took a second to smile
A tiny part of me will leave with you
And a little bit of you will stay
                —— Javan

A jagged, awkward mountain had to be climbed
    they didn’t climb together
she started to climb
    took a nasty fall
landed hard at the very bottom
    rubble falling
burying her emotions and relationship
    for a period of time

It was his turn
    climbing he went
his foot landing on an unsturdy rock
    he, too, took an awful fall
as he fell
    his emotions escalated
        anger
        spite
        wonder
        questions of why

He took his freedom to the height of that mountain
    when he walked out, left everything behind
        his two favorite “Lady’s”

She explored her new found freedom
    when the fun ended
each of them felt
    like they died inside
they were the only ones that knew it

They were suffering the withdrawal of the “love drug”

She unburied herself from the rubble
    examined the damage
    the wounds to her heart
    and state of mind
She cried
    until her tears became the Sahara Desert

His feelings began to eat away at him
    like vultures pecking at their prey
he missed and thought of her
    until his body crumbled
        like that decaying prey
at the thought
    of the stark reality
this will be his life without his true love
The “love drug” connected them again
    they began to talk, express their need to be with each other

III


An attraction between two people
            can happen spontaneously
But a lasting relationship
            takes work
                    —— Javan

Together they started to climb that mountain
    rock
        by
            rock
hesitation
    by
        hesitation
wondering who will take the next step
    him resisting by confusion
    her resisting by uncertainity
both saying the only thing they know is
    “I love you”
Half-way up the first level of the mountain
    they stood
        not knowing whether
            to climb
            stop
            walk away completely

They decided to continue the climb
    more rocks
        a little hesitatancy
    a gigantic earthquake
their passion was hotter then they realized

They made it to the second level of the mountain
    taking their time to work out their issues

And yet the bottom line
    no matter what happens
        has each of them saying
    the only thing I know right now is that
        “I Love You”

IV


Have you ever smiled
        And said goodnight
When you were really
        Saying goodbye
                    —— Javan

Their climb came to an abrupt halt
    Is love really enough?
as she tries to figure out the separation
    growing between them

In the distance, on the second level of the mountain
    they could see the treacherous climb ahead
        decision had to be made
        conversations had to be spoken
they had to discover if a loving lasting relationship
    is what they truly want

They began to climb
    came across a sign
DANGER:  Falling Rocks!  Proceed With Caution!

A rock fell
    she avoided injury
    he slid down to the second level of the mountain
she encouraged him to try to climb again
    she yelled down the side of the mountain
    tried to get him to talk to her
    so he tried the climb again but only when he got lonely
    or had something to say
more earthquakes erupted
    their passion was losing steam

She felt unloved
    unwanted
    rejected
there were no phone calls
        no visits
complete confusion
    intense anger

One last earthquake developed
    it scored two points on the Richter Scale
        no love
            passion
                where did it all go
She laid in his arms one last time
    he had other things on his mind
the key to the rest of their lives appeared
        he disappeared
there were no phone calls
        no visits
she still felt intense anger and complete confusion

And all he left her with from being
    on the verge of true love
        was a smile
            a gentle “goodnight”
                and a silent goodbye.

On The Verge Of True Love

miss-poet:

I


It’s not so much a matter
    of meeting the right person
As it is meeting them
        at the right time
                    —— Javan

A by-chance meeting
    at a bar
        on a mid-November night
    stood a hairless man
        by choice
    a background somewhat
        of the drifter type

He settled his eyes on a woman
    with a wild and crazy personality
        and a daring attitude
    to the on-looker
but has a warm and loving heart on the inside

A figment of the imagination
    or are these two people
        on the verge of true love?

With a blink of an eye
    the “old married couple syndrome” developed
        new living arrangements were
            established for this choice
                hairless man

Months pass
    life has never been more meaningful for this couple
        greeting each other with a kiss
        making dinners for two
        sleeping in each other’s arms
        creating an earthquake when they made love
    A new addition entered their lives
        a big furry puppy
    She’s the “Lady” of the house

Then issues started to sneak out
    from their cover of perfect love
questions, concerns arose
    an unsuspecting person
noticed changes around the house

Embarrassment
    anger
        uncertainity
    stirred like an icy wind
a bag of “dirty laundry” appeared
    stood in between them
        as high as Mount Everest

II


Because I took a moment to speak
And you took a second to smile
A tiny part of me will leave with you
And a little bit of you will stay
                —— Javan

A jagged, awkward mountain had to be climbed
    they didn’t climb together
she started to climb
    took a nasty fall
landed hard at the very bottom
    rubble falling
burying her emotions and relationship
    for a period of time

It was his turn
    climbing he went
his foot landing on an unsturdy rock
    he, too, took an awful fall
as he fell
    his emotions escalated
        anger
        spite
        wonder
        questions of why

He took his freedom to the height of that mountain
    when he walked out, left everything behind
        his two favorite “Lady’s”

She explored her new found freedom
    when the fun ended
each of them felt
    like they died inside
they were the only ones that knew it

They were suffering the withdrawal of the “love drug”

She unburied herself from the rubble
    examined the damage
    the wounds to her heart
    and state of mind
She cried
    until her tears became the Sahara Desert

His feelings began to eat away at him
    like vultures pecking at their prey
he missed and thought of her
    until his body crumbled
        like that decaying prey
at the thought
    of the stark reality
this will be his life without his true love
The “love drug” connected them again
    they began to talk, express their need to be with each other

III


An attraction between two people
            can happen spontaneously
But a lasting relationship
            takes work
                    —— Javan

Together they started to climb that mountain
    rock
        by
            rock
hesitation
    by
        hesitation
wondering who will take the next step
    him resisting by confusion
    her resisting by uncertainity
both saying the only thing they know is
    “I love you”
Half-way up the first level of the mountain
    they stood
        not knowing whether
            to climb
            stop
            walk away completely

They decided to continue the climb
    more rocks
        a little hesitatancy
    a gigantic earthquake
their passion was hotter then they realized

They made it to the second level of the mountain
    taking their time to work out their issues

And yet the bottom line
    no matter what happens
        has each of them saying
    the only thing I know right now is that
        “I Love You”

IV


Have you ever smiled
        And said goodnight
When you were really
        Saying goodbye
                    —— Javan

Their climb came to an abrupt halt
    Is love really enough?
as she tries to figure out the separation
    growing between them

In the distance, on the second level of the mountain
    they could see the treacherous climb ahead
        decision had to be made
        conversations had to be spoken
they had to discover if a loving lasting relationship
    is what they truly want

They began to climb
    came across a sign
DANGER:  Falling Rocks!  Proceed With Caution!

A rock fell
    she avoided injury
    he slid down to the second level of the mountain
she encouraged him to try to climb again
    she yelled down the side of the mountain
    tried to get him to talk to her
    so he tried the climb again but only when he got lonely
    or had something to say
more earthquakes erupted
    their passion was losing steam

She felt unloved
    unwanted
    rejected
there were no phone calls
        no visits
complete confusion
    intense anger

One last earthquake developed
    it scored two points on the Richter Scale
        no love
            passion
                where did it all go
She laid in his arms one last time
    he had other things on his mind
the key to the rest of their lives appeared
        he disappeared
there were no phone calls
        no visits
she still felt intense anger and complete confusion

And all he left her with from being
    on the verge of true love
        was a smile
            a gentle “goodnight”
                and a silent goodbye.

On The Verge Of True Love

I


It’s not so much a matter
    of meeting the right person
As it is meeting them
        at the right time
                    —— Javan

A by-chance meeting
    at a bar
        on a mid-November night
    stood a hairless man
        by choice
    a background somewhat
        of the drifter type

He settled his eyes on a woman
    with a wild and crazy personality
        and a daring attitude
    to the on-looker
but has a warm and loving heart on the inside

A figment of the imagination
    or are these two people
        on the verge of true love?

With a blink of an eye
    the “old married couple syndrome” developed
        new living arrangements were
            established for this choice
                hairless man

Months pass
    life has never been more meaningful for this couple
        greeting each other with a kiss
        making dinners for two
        sleeping in each other’s arms
        creating an earthquake when they made love
    A new addition entered their lives
        a big furry puppy
    She’s the “Lady” of the house

Then issues started to sneak out
    from their cover of perfect love
questions, concerns arose
    an unsuspecting person
noticed changes around the house

Embarrassment
    anger
        uncertainity
    stirred like an icy wind
a bag of “dirty laundry” appeared
    stood in between them
        as high as Mount Everest

II


Because I took a moment to speak
And you took a second to smile
A tiny part of me will leave with you
And a little bit of you will stay
                —— Javan

A jagged, awkward mountain had to be climbed
    they didn’t climb together
she started to climb
    took a nasty fall
landed hard at the very bottom
    rubble falling
burying her emotions and relationship
    for a period of time

It was his turn
    climbing he went
his foot landing on an unsturdy rock
    he, too, took an awful fall
as he fell
    his emotions escalated
        anger
        spite
        wonder
        questions of why

He took his freedom to the height of that mountain
    when he walked out, left everything behind
        his two favorite “Lady’s”

She explored her new found freedom
    when the fun ended
each of them felt
    like they died inside
they were the only ones that knew it

They were suffering the withdrawal of the “love drug”

She unburied herself from the rubble
    examined the damage
    the wounds to her heart
    and state of mind
She cried
    until her tears became the Sahara Desert

His feelings began to eat away at him
    like vultures pecking at their prey
he missed and thought of her
    until his body crumbled
        like that decaying prey
at the thought
    of the stark reality
this will be his life without his true love
The “love drug” connected them again
    they began to talk, express their need to be with each other

III


An attraction between two people
            can happen spontaneously
But a lasting relationship
            takes work
                    —— Javan

Together they started to climb that mountain
    rock
        by
            rock
hesitation
    by
        hesitation
wondering who will take the next step
    him resisting by confusion
    her resisting by uncertainity
both saying the only thing they know is
    “I love you”
Half-way up the first level of the mountain
    they stood
        not knowing whether
            to climb
            stop
            walk away completely

They decided to continue the climb
    more rocks
        a little hesitatancy
    a gigantic earthquake
their passion was hotter then they realized

They made it to the second level of the mountain
    taking their time to work out their issues

And yet the bottom line
    no matter what happens
        has each of them saying
    the only thing I know right now is that
        “I Love You”

IV


Have you ever smiled
        And said goodnight
When you were really
        Saying goodbye
                    —— Javan

Their climb came to an abrupt halt
    Is love really enough?
as she tries to figure out the separation
    growing between them

In the distance, on the second level of the mountain
    they could see the treacherous climb ahead
        decision had to be made
        conversations had to be spoken
they had to discover if a loving lasting relationship
    is what they truly want

They began to climb
    came across a sign
DANGER:  Falling Rocks!  Proceed With Caution!

A rock fell
    she avoided injury
    he slid down to the second level of the mountain
she encouraged him to try to climb again
    she yelled down the side of the mountain
    tried to get him to talk to her
    so he tried the climb again but only when he got lonely
    or had something to say
more earthquakes erupted
    their passion was losing steam

She felt unloved
    unwanted
    rejected
there were no phone calls
        no visits
complete confusion
    intense anger

One last earthquake developed
    it scored two points on the Richter Scale
        no love
            passion
                where did it all go
She laid in his arms one last time
    he had other things on his mind
the key to the rest of their lives appeared
        he disappeared
there were no phone calls
        no visits
she still felt intense anger and complete confusion

And all he left her with from being
    on the verge of true love
        was a smile
            a gentle “goodnight”
                and a silent goodbye.

Condemned

    Fr. John Savage walks into his confessional dreading the next three hours, hearing the same sins every Saturday.  He climbs into the oak opening as if he is entering his coffin.  Sitting in his purple velvet papal and oak chair, he stares at his Bible and begins to pray The Lord’s Prayer to help him.  About an hour and a half passes, a young man comes into the confessional, he is separated by an oak wall and a metal diamond shaped grid, the young man blankly stares at it.  He speaks nervously, “Forgive me Father for I have sinned.  It has been a month since my last confession.”
    “God Bless You, Son.”  Unable to control his hands, the young man makes a wavy sign of the cross, “In the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit.”
    “What are your sins?”
    “I believe I’ve committed an unforgivable sin.  I’ve done something unnatural.”  As the man continues with his confession, Fr. John lapses into a fog like state.  He has been having recurring dreams of wanting to be with a woman; a female parishioner that comes to mass every Sunday and she sits in the first pew.  She has a perfectly curved body and unforgettable smile; she listens in a reflective manner to every word spoken in the homily.
    “Father?  Father, are you able to absolve me from my sins?”
    Shaken away from his memory of the night before, he speaks in a ghastly tone, “God, the Father of mercies, through the death and resurrection of His Son has reconciled the world to Himself and sent the Holy Spirit among us for the forgiveness of sins; through the ministry of the Church may God give you pardon and peace, and I absolve you from your sins in the name of the Father, and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit.  Amen.”
    As soon as the young man leaves the confessional, Fr. John ends confession early as he felt he needed to be alone.  He headed back to the Rectory.  He pulled out his journal and began writing about what had happened during confession.  He tried to piece together what his dream is about and what it is trying to tell him.  He started to pray and asked God to give him guidance.
    The next day he says mass to a full church crowd.  He spots his favorite female parishioner sitting in her regular pew with her remarkable smile.  He began the sacrament of the Eucharist and as he raised the host, it transformed into the female body.  His hands began to shudder and he barely held onto the host without dropping it.  He took a deep breath before raising the wine to bless it.  The full cup in the air, it transformed into a female silhouette, her soft luscious red lips wanting to kiss his and abruptly he put the cup of wine down onto the altar.  Some of the parishioners noticed his reaction and gave him rude, insulting looks except for his favorite one; in her eyes, he could do no wrong.  She just showed him her brilliant smile.
    After mass, he was shaking hands with his regular church crowd.  Then this female approached him.
    “Hello, Fr. John.  My name is Kathryn Larson and I always enjoy your Sunday service.”
    “Well, thank you, Kathryn.  I’m glad to know you’re feeling God is with you when you leave mass.  May God Bless you.”
    “More is with me then just God …”
    She touched his hand gracefully as he watched her leave the church like the angel he imagined her to be.  I finally know her name he thought and she has a beautiful name to go along with her gorgeous figure.
    Another week went by and Fr. John finds himself back in the confessional on Saturday afternoon.  He hears someone enter into the opposite side and suddenly a voice speaks, “Hello, Fr John.  It’s Kathryn Larson.  We met last Sunday after mass, remember?”
    “Yes, I remember.  Please start your confession.”
    A creaking of the confessional door and Fr. John turns to find Kathryn on his side of the confessional.  “Kathryn!  Please return to your confessional!”
    His adrenaline is rising from his shock and fear of what might happen.  Suddenly, his visions from the past weeks start to come one by one.  Before he could get a handle on his thoughts and emotions, Kathryn is on his lap.  His vision of the full wine cup from Sunday’s mass was extremely clear as her lips gently grazed his before he turned his head away.
    “I’m a priest!  I took a vow of celibacy!  This is extremely … “
    “Unnatural?”  Kathryn said erotically.
    “Inappropriate!”  As he realizes the young man from confession the week before said that he did something unnatural.
    “Do you believe that God tests us?”
    “Yes, there are many ways that God tests us and our beliefs.”
    “Very good, that’s the answer I was expecting to hear.  I am here to test you.  I’ve seen how you want me.”
    “This is wrong!  Very inappropriate!  I demand you get off of me at once!”
    “I made the host change into my vivacious body and I felt your arousal.  Then I changed the full cup of wine into my willing lips ready to kiss you and I almost succeeded.”
    “Please!  Stop at once!”  He frantically searches for his cross.
    “Is this what you are looking for?”  Pulling the gold cross from her sleek neck and puts it in his face.  She gives it a slight tug, it transforms into an upside down cross, wrapping itself around his neck and he stares down at it in pure horror.  Fr. John starts to wrestle himself from his papal chair but Kathryn locks him into position.  Her eyes become red bullets as she begins to terrorize his thoughts with arousal.  He stares at her in a stupor and she knows she has full control of his mind and thoughts, including his actions.  She tears off her clothing.  He admires her beautiful naked curves and touches her soft delicate skin.  She runs her fingers down his virginal body and melts away his clothing.  He sits in his chair naked and completely aroused by the woman he has been longing to be with.  Still in control of his mind, he effortlessly obliges to any action taken upon him.
    After a sleepless night riddled with fear and guilt, Fr. John must find his willpower to say mass on Sunday morning.  He can barely stop thinking about the day before and how wonderful it felt to be inside a woman.  He is no longer pure.  In God’s eyes, he must repent everyday of his life until his death.  What will God say to him when he reaches the gates of heaven and knows of his sin?
    He sluggishly gets ready for mass.  He is clearly depressed and preoccupied.  One of his faithful parishioners asks if everything is all right and Fr John insists it is, claiming he is tired and coming down with a cold.
    Midway through the mass he is ready to bless the host and wine.  He catches Kathryn’s red bullet stare and immediately starts to pray for God’s guidance.  He breaks off a piece of the host and eats it.  Then he takes a sip of the wine and it stings his throat as he swallows it, making him cough.  He excuses himself and collects his thoughts for a moment, and then he continues with the rest of the mass.
    After mass, he sits in the empty Rectory and stares at his journal.  He tries to write down what he is feeling but he is having trouble finding the words.  All he can think of is how Kathryn must be the devil or is he going insane.  He sits back in his chair and closes his eyes, all he can see is Kathryn’s beautiful body, and how terrific it felt to be inside her for the first time.
    “Do you want more, Fr. John?”
    “How did you get in here?  Where did you come from?”
    “I have come to test you again.”
    “What?!  No, I am already a sinner!  I am no longer pure!  Please, stop!  Stop torturing me!”
    “Your torture as just begun … Father!”
    Kathryn sits on his lap, securing herself into position.  He watches in dismay, as she mystically becomes the wine cup representing her female silhouette.  She darts in his face and kisses him deeply like the day before and then he feels the sting from the wine when he sipped it earlier that morning.  He coughs and gasps for breath.  Her slithering tongue continues kissing him and each time the stinging gets more severe along the coughing and loss of breath.  He tries to fight her off each time but each kiss is stronger than the last taking more and more of his life.  He tries to take a final breath but his body is summoned by a vague presence of a person.
    A foggy vision appears to him.  He blinks his eyes several times to try to see who is before him.
    “God?  Is that you?”  No response to the question.
“John Savage!  Do you know what you have done?”
    “Yes.  I do know what I have done.   I’m no longer pure.  I must be punished.”
    “And punished you will be!”  The vision spoke in a deep threatening tone.  Fr. John felt his spirit tremble in fear.  “I shall condemn you to fulfilling my ways amongst the people.”
    Fr. John felt his body return to him and then opened his eyes.  He frantically got up and rushed to the mirror.  He saw his eyes had become red bullets and then realized the devil had taken him over and Kathryn Larson was one of his victims.

Target Practice

    The air was cold and a slight mist was falling.  The sudden fall weather seemed premature for early September, but Carly didn’t care because she just wanted to get home and crawl into her soft, warm bed.  She wanted to end her week peacefully.  It’s 11:20 PM and her windshield wipers are driving her nuts.  There doesn’t seem to be enough mist to wipe away.  She starts scanning the radio stations for a high-energy song to keep her senses sharp so she can keep her eyes from drooping into a sleepy stupor.  Her finger lands on a station, and the song “Promiscuous Girl” starts playing, and she turns the volume up because she loves the song.  Carly was surprised to see the limited amount of traffic on the highway but dismissed it and assumed the weather was keeping people indoors; her head was still dancing with the music.
    About a half mile down the road, Carly became very uneasy in her buckled seat as she continued driving and then everything began to move in slow motion.
    Several yards up the highway was an overpass, and there were four young men acting cautious over the chain link fence, looking for headlights coming in their direction.
    “Come on, Bobby … Hurry it up!  I see headlights coming this way!”  Jason nervously demanded.
    “Cool it, man!  These military SWAT scopes are delicate.  They ain’t like those AK47’s where you just jam in a clip and shoot!”  Bobby spoke with an attitude.
    He propped the M14 up on his bony crooked shoulder.  It seemed to cradle the rifle perfectly, and he peered through the scope.
    “The night vision on this thing is excellent.  This should be an exact shot!”  Bobby said.
    Carly, still feeling uneasy, looked up and saw the overpass coming.  She squinted her eyes, and she saw some young men hanging out suspiciously.
    “There’s the car!  You see it?  You see it in the scope?  It’s coming, man!”
    “Jay — shut the hell up!  Let me focus!”  Demands Bobby.
    “You’re gonna miss your chance, man!” 
    “I ain’t gonna fuckin’ miss! Damn it all, Jay!  You want me to use this thing on you?”
    “S-oo-rry.”
    Carly is still squinting her eyes trying to figure out what is going on up on that overpass.  Then she begins to wonder if one of them is pointing a gun toward her.  All she knows is she’s only twelve miles from her soft, cozy bed that she so desperately wants to enter and sleep.
    “Dead center!”  Bobby says seriously.
    Bobby has his finger coiled around the trigger firmly.
Then he callously announces, “Chet!  Pete!  Car!  NOW!  The other two friends dash to get the car ready for the getaway.
Carly holds her breath as the front of her car begins to drive under the overpass.
    Under his breath, Bobby says his candid words, “Prepare to say goodbye … BITCH!”
Bobby pulls the trigger and a loud P L O P … BOOM … echoes through the desolate street followed by crackling of shattered glass cascading onto the damp pavement. 
    Carly briefly sees the windshield shattering, her reaction causes her to press down on the gas pedal and swerve to the right as if she was trying to duck and avoid a flying object.  Then she feels a large dense object enter her left shoulder.  Her car takes flight, catapults.  The red metal paperweight twists like a small dust storm.  It finally lands on the roof and plays a short round of spin the bottle.
    Chet, the driver of the getaway car, heads back to where they were and drives over the highway to see the damage.  They all look out the window and see the car on its roof with flames shooting out.
    Bobby shouts out the window, “SUCKA!”  He begins laughing hysterically.
    Bobby turns to Jason and puts his arm around him, giving his shoulder a good squeeze.
    “Jay, my man, see what you can do with the right rifle, military attitude, and some concentration.  You can do that, pointing at the already past burning wreckage, you can do what I just did!”
    Jason smirks at him as they drive back to Bobby’s house.  Bobby trips out of Chet’s car and grabs the scope and rifle.  When he gets inside, he leans the rifle up against the gun cabinet that his father, Lance, owns and then falls into the couch a couple of feet away.  He falls asleep immediately.
    Bobby awakes from his two-hour nap.  He tries to look at the time but he is too drowsy to see the clock.  He realizes that the rifle and scope have to be returned to his father’s gun cabinet.  He manages to put the scope and rifle back into their proper sequence:  AK47, M14, M16, M21, Machine Guns, and Special Police Rifle.  He closes the door and then tries to lock it.  He hears a faint click and then walks away to his bedroom. 
    The next day, Lance sees that the padlock on his gun cabinet is unlocked.  The only other person that knows where he keeps the key is Bobby and he is furious with him.  He waits for him to come home so he can speak to his son.
    Bobby finally comes home with his friends Jason and Chet.  Lance hears their boisterous laughter in the other room and then immediately instructs Chet and Jason to leave because he needs to talk to Bobby alone.
    “What’s goin’ on, Dad?  Why you acting so serious?”
    “Son, come over to this gun cabinet.  See this lock?”
    “Yeah, so.”
    “Why did you go into this gun cabinet?  I told you never to go in here unless there is an emergency!”
    Before Bobby could answer his father’s question, the phone rings, and his father answers it.  When Lance was done talking on the phone, he marches over to his son and grabs the collar of his shirt and yells, “Robert James Pryor!  What the hell did you do last night!!”
    “Nothing!  Me and the boys just went out and had a good time.”
    “You’re a fuckin’ liar!  Tell me right now what you did!  God help you … son of a bitch!”
    Lance pushes him into his chair, awaiting an answer.  Bobby sat in silence with his head down starring at a worn spot in the rug.
    “What the fuck did you do?  Answer me!  Son of a bitch!  That worn spot on the rug doesn’t have the answers.”  He gives him a firm shove in the left shoulder.
    “Alright!  Me and the boys were just playing around.  We thought it would be good target practice to shoot some bullets off the overpass on Mitchell Street.  You want me to be a perfect target shooter, don’t you?”
    “Target Practice?  Did you know that you were playing with someone’s life!”
    “What you talking about?”
    “What I am talkin’ about is the police are on their way here to arrest you for attempted murder, and fleeing the scene of a crime.”
    “How am I supposed to know that?”
    “What you were supposed to know … was that you are never supposed to be in that fuckin’ gun cabinet!  You little fuckers went out and drove a car without even having a license!”
    “How did you find out?”
    “That phone call I got before was Chet’s father!”
    “Damn it!  Chet was right!”
    “What was Chet right about?  Answer me, Boy!”
    Bobby pushes his father to the floor but his father immediately got up and tackled Bobby. Then he put him into a chokehold.
    “How stupid are you?  You can’t be a solider without intelligence.  You’re just a stupid fuck!  Just like your mother!  Her promiscuity cost me my marriage to her.”
    “I am sorry.  I didn’t mean it   I really didn’t mean it.  Please … forgive me.  I am sorry.”
    Lance gets in his face like an angry solider, commanding, “Begging forgiveness like a baby isn’t going to get you anywhere.  Be a MAN!  Stop your fuckin’ cryin!”
    Bobby continues whimpering.  His father’s commands aren’t going to work on him this time.  He’s not the prominent solider that his father once was in the Marines.
      Police sirens roared as they entered the quiet neighborhood.  Bobby tries to break free from his father.
    “Please … don’t let them take me.  I’m sorry.  Dad, tell them I’m sorry.  I don’t want to go to jail.”
    “Stop your damn whining!  For being thirteen, you act like a fuckin’ ten year old.  The Marines don’t accept whimpering whiners and stupid fucks like you.”  Lance takes the back of his hand and strikes it across Bobby’s face, leaving his left cheek red and with a welt.
    Police officers barge into the house to take Bobby away.  They roll him onto his stomach and tightly lock the handcuffs onto his wrists.  Then, they read him his rights.
    “Dad, please … Don’t let them take me …”

                                                ********
        Three months have past and Bobby is still sitting in a jail cell awaiting his trial even though he could be out on bail.  Lance refuses to pay any money to get Bobby out of jail.  He believes that this is the only way his son will learn to be a good solider.  Bobby only made one friend in jail, an eighteen year old and ironically his name is Pete.  Bobby was explaining his situation to Pete, “Yeah, one of my friends is named Pete and he was the lookout person while my friend Chet was the driver of the getaway car.”
    “Dude, your reason for being here doesn’t seem right.  Unlike me, well … I killed two cops so I’ll never see the light of day again.”
    “Yeah, but how do you feel about it?  Is there guilt or sadness?  Don’t you care that you just ended two lives?”
    “Man, they were out to get my bro … I mean they were gonna take him down for a crime he didn’t commit.  I told my bro that I would always have his back, so now he’s free.  I’m gonna spend my life here so he can be free.  I did it for my bro.”
    Later in the evening, Bobby was thinking about what Pete had said.  Who did I do this for?  I just did it to make my father happy, but he still isn’t happy with me.  He won’t even bail me out of jail.  I didn’t want to shoot anyone, but I thought my dad would be proud of me.  No one is proud of me, not even myself.  Why can’t my father accept me for who I am?  I don’t even want to go into the Marines.  I want to be a lawyer so I can help people like Pete become free so they can live their lives for the right reasons.  The only way I can be free is if I stand up for myself and not for anyone else.  I can achieve my own happiness without my father’s help.

The Anger

Under the dark skies
    the clouds remain

I sit and wait —
    wait for the anger to go away

The anger begins to build
    like a rumble of thunder

The anger can explode
    like a flash of lightening

The sadness remains
    like large drops of rain

Like the wind rattling a broken storm window
    the sounds …
        banging
            slamming
                throwing
                    drown out the wind

Like sound of a tree splitting in two
    the knife is wrenched in the back
        The Sting
            the awful sting as the knife is turned
                now the blood begins to boil

Like large hail falling on a moving car
    the anger erupts
        then the cold stare mixes
            with the boiling blood
                and then silence —
                    utter silence

Like the calm dead air after a ravaging thunderstorm
    the anger is speechless
        two people sit in opposite rooms
            staring at the banal walls
                wondering
                    why one is angry
                        at the other


© 1997 By:  Denise K. Marine

What do you think of this poem?

But You Don’t Want To See It!

ALONE
    in a darkened room

AWAIT
    for your call

DECIDE
    to pick up the phone

GONE
    for the evening

TALK
    to your best friend
    but you’re nowhere around

GONE
    yet not gone with me

PUSHED
    in a direction to violate our trust

But you don’t want to see it!

CONSIDERED
    dating another man

BLINDFOLDED
    our relationship is falling apart
    you’re nowhere around

But you don’t want to see it!


© 1997, 2012 By:  Denise K. Marine

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